To You..

(the following was written on 240906 in a friendster testimonial..)

To a very special You:

In one day's time, on the same date a year ago..
with butterflies in my stommach, lungs, kidneys, intestines.. basically, i was an absolute nervous wreck, wondering what will i do if everything turns out wrong and that i'll never get to speak to you again and in the process losing one of my bestest friend. =x

balls to it.

i muster whatever courage i had inside me; armed with a tiny bouquet of flowers, a doggy cushion and a Mayday CD which i knew you really wanted, i met you after your tution at cck lot1 complex..

then came my question.

then your answer.

a simple.. yes.

i never experienced happiness on such a magnitude before. never.
i was overjoyed and relieved! =p

through this one year, we went through the highs and the lows. some threaten to tear us apart, some only serves to bond us stronger.

we bled and we teared,
we smile and we laugh till our side hurt.. =)

all these for a future we believe in, for a future we work towards. all these for you, me and us.
i may not be the best, nor can i give you the best. but i will and certainly be the best i can be and give you the best i can give.

i can't be physically with you all the time but that doesnt limit my wish to do so.
for i want to be there.

i want to be the one you turn to in times of need
i want to be the one whom you sing to
i want to be the one you hug
i want to be the one you sayang
i want to be the one you pay attention to

i want to be the one you hit in frustration
i want to be the one you nag at
i want to be the one you drag for all your shopping
i want to be the one to wait hours when you are late

most of all.
i want to be the one to touch the wrinkles on your weathered face
and tell you you're beautiful no matter what.
and to kiss you even if it risk dropping my dentures.

i love you chen weijie..
thank you for everything you taught and showed me.
thank you for walking this road with me.
thank you for loving me the way you always do.

sidenote:
i'll keep trying...


oh! look at the entry below...
it's my current nightmare.. =x